Loki the Liesmith

It's the age of change for me. I guess that was denoted by the Death card, which I kept drawing continuously.

I've given up things in the hopes of getting new ones! I gave away my violin to Sara's little sister, because I think it's important that she get a musical education if she really wants one, and I wish that I had started violin when I was little, so I wanted her to have it so she could play. ^___^

But now I'm one violin short of my collection of one violin. xD But it's okay, since I'm planning on buying a new one. I think I'll get it off eBay. It costs around the same as the one I just gave away, but I think it's better. =]

I also need a dinner table. I was wondering where on earth I was going to get one for cheap, and I was hoping to pick one up from a garage sale. I absolutely refused the old one my parents are trying to dump on me. Basically they want to get rid of their old one while they buy a new one for themselves. It's a cruddy thing, and I think it belongs in the dump. Luckily, I found GREAT tables at K-Mart for absolutely cheap. They're simple and small. Which is good. I don't need anything fancy or big. I want it simplistic. =3 They cost around a $120.

I need a new laptop, but it's unlike I'll get one of those any time soon. They're way too expensive. My laptop seems like it's on its last legs. I've already spent more money repairing it that it was worth in the first place. Now it overheats and crashes day after day, and threatens to take all my data and files with it. xD It wasn't a very good laptop in the first place, since it was cheap and we just bought it from Staples. A new laptop costs around a thousand something dollars, so that seems like a long term investment. I can live with the laptop for a while, but it's best if I start saving for a new one right now.

I also wish to sell my car. My dad and I are deliberating on whether or not I should sell my car, the 95 Lexus ES300, or my mom's 2000 Mercury Villager Van. With gas prices as they are these days, there's just no effing way I can afford to drive either. It costs 60 bucks just to fill my tank, and I have to fill it at least once every two weeks. Dx My dad says the Mercury Villager will sell for more, but I doubt it. No one wants a gas guzzler these days, and that's what the van is. xP If I can't sell it then I'm stuck with it. I'd rather be stuck with my Lexus. Anyway, if I can sell either, I hope to get enough for a motorcycle. They're more gas efficient, and I wouldn't be riding it extremely often anyways. Besides, they're just so fucking cool. xD I've wanted one for a long time. I'm not sure I'd have enough though. I'd have to see. =B

I need to stop spending money on food. I should learn how to cook. xD I've also been making a lot of impulse buys. Luckily, I did a bit of work, and I should get paid for it soon. My credit is dangerously low. And I have no cash, and there's only 13 bucks in my savings account. xD

I recently had the first exams in my summer school courses. They seemed pretty simple for the most part, but I doubt I'll have any idea on how I'd done until next week.

I also need to plan the picnic for next week. I think we'll hold it in the Botanical Gardens. All I need to know is what to bring. D: I think April, Sara and her boyfriend, my sister and her boyfriend, and maybe if April invites other people will be coming. =] I'm glad me and Sara are friends again, and it seems like a miracle April came back from Colorado. Now that I think about it, I thought I wasn't ever going to see her again, and all of a sudden she's back. Weird how life throws people back at you. =] Almost all my friends are back now, except Chelsea, but I hope she's doing well in Montana. Lord knows it'd be a blast to work in the forest service in Montana. xD I wonder if it's as hot there as it is here though. D:

I find myself with a lot of free time, and so many things to do, that I don't know what to do first, and end up doing nothing. xD Or sometimes I'm just lazy. I got another book to work on, the Alkahest project to work on, I have to keep up on my statistics homework, and reading in my Philosophy class, which I don't think I should have dismissed as cruelly as I did. Sure, I still think it's a load of crock, but it's best to face things with an open mind, and try it even though I don't like it, and see it through to the end without quitting. =]

Well here's to the future! x3

Light passes through the atmosphere.

Light acts as both a wave and a packet. The former being called a wavelength, and the latter being a photon. Most longer wavelengths of light simply pass through the atmosphere, but the blue wavelength which is shorter is scattered in the air because of small particles of dust and other elements.

The scattering, called the Tyndall effect, or Rayleigh scattering spreads blue wavelengths across the span of the sky making it appear blue. Violet, an even shorter wavelength of light does not has as much of an effect because the sun is not constant in its emission of wavelengths of light, and most of it is absorbed by the atmosphere itself before it can scatter. Also, our eyes are less sensitive to violet light, due to the limit of only three receptor cones in our retina, which are attributed to red, green, and blue. Those three are the colors that our eyes respond the strongest to.

Been up and busy for a while. I don't blog much anymore.

Been going to summer school. I think Philosophy is a total waste of time filled with people who are full of themselves, and do no good for the world. I had once thought myself a person who would have enjoyed philosophy, since the meaning of the word is "love of knowledge", and that's definitely something I see myself as having. But these people do not bother themselves with knowledge. They think, granted, but entirely waste their time on unimportant things to which I could give an answer in mere seconds while it takes them hours to argue about the definition of a certain word, or what so-and-so should have said, instead of what he really said, and the fact that there is a right and wrong to everything, and people who believe there are shades of grey are just shirking responsibility.

The entire philosophy profession now seems to me a load of crock. Sure, it's interesting perhaps to share views, and debate, but holding it as profession, or creating a class from it, is stupid. One can just debate over lunch, or on an internet chatroom, with about the same level of intelligence I'm faced with in that class room.

As a result, I cut the last class, which was the second class, because of a mixture of my apprehension towards it, and the fact that I was kind of absorbed in programming NPCs for my RO private server. xD

Statistics class is simple. Still it's hard to gather up discipline to finish the homework. The class seems pretty standard. Sara's in that class too, so I get to see her around.

Damn, it's been hot this summer. I have half-formed vague ideas and plans floating in my mind but which refuse to surface and I have no will to elicit them due to the heat and consider them carefully. I feel more content to just float along with fate for the next month perhaps and not do too much in the way of influencing my destiny.

Napoleon's Pyramids

William Dietrich

I've been reading again, which I haven't done in a long while. I got a bunch of very interesting books from the library! ;3 I already finished one, and it was rather good. A historical fiction (always my favorite genre), called "Napoleon's Pyramids." Granted, it was fantastical, and as entirely realistic as perhaps the DaVinci Code (it seems to me a lot of books and movies have been influenced by the popularity of that book since the book I just read was rather recent and probably written after the DaVinci code was released), but it was interesting, and adventuresome, just the way I like it. xD Aaaand, it had a lot to do with history and archaeology and Egypt (and even math)! (And gypsies. xD)

I've found myself more inexorably drawn to gypsy culture after finding out our ancestors were gypsy. Another thing I've been doing is watching random episodes of TV-Shows I rent from Blockbuster. A series called Carnivale is intriguing. I might watch some more of it.

The biggest highlight of the funeral for me was...

I JUST FOUND OUT I WAS PART BLACK. D: Srsly. Apparently, my great-(great?)-grandma or something on somebody's side was a mulatto, so she was a half black. So I got black blood in me. So, so far, I got German, English, Dutch, Gypsy (which is a wildcard here since they came from everywhere), Chinese, Vietnamese, and Black. D: WTFREAK. I'm everything. Future discoveries promise to present themselves as well. xD

About one half of my family is tattooed. Haha. It's what my parents term, the "bad-half" of our family. You see, my great grandma had like two sons and a daughter I think. One son she kept and the other son was raised by someone else and became my grandpa. He turned out to be a good'un, and his brother and sister turned out to be wild. The entire rest of their family line is riddled with wildness too. But my grandpa's line heralded kids who were "good" and boring, like my dad and Aunt. Even my great-grandma was a wild one. She was a biker. xD

Anyway, yeah. School tomorrow. Night! =B

Hollywood seems to release things in themes. I remember when the first National Treasure came out, it was around the time of the DaVinci Code, so the themes of Templars were recurrent.

The second National Treasure seems to be recurrent with the Fourth Indiana Jones theme, being Aztec/Olmec/MesoAmerican stuff. And the Crystal Skull thing from IJ4 matched up pretty well with the time I was watching the Stargate Episode dealing with the Crystal Skull. Maybe fate just throws similar things together. xP

Anyway, NT2 was dumb. They just reused all the old jokes, and it was pretty much just a recycled script the whole way through. Riley wasn't that cute this time either. I mean, he was the same. He didn't turn into a jerk or anything, but he just had less of an impact. Though I must say, he has VERY good taste in women. ;D Except it was only at the end, but this VERY cute girl with freckles finally gave him some attention. xD But his taste in cars is lamentable.

Abigail was meh as well. The Gates family seems to have a thing where the guys are only in love with their women when they're out and about to die and winning treasure.

Bored.

Funeral tomorrow. Been watching that "Earth" thing. It's really cool. I hope I get to keep it or something, once my mom gets bored of it. xD

Hummmm... I'm tired. Been bored, with nothing to do. Worked today. Not too much though.

ARGH.

Zero. It is nothing. Nothing now. Nothing then. And nothing to come. It's round figure indicates the infinite. It indicates the Universe.

It is me. It is you. It is everything. Nothing comes to nothing, and nothing comes from nothing. So don't worry. Don't stress, because nothing will come of anything anyway. You are only at peace with the universe when you realize that anything you do will be as nothing. But does that mean you should do nothing? No! In this case you should do everything, because when it comes to a choice from doing nothing or doing everything, even though the outcome is the same, then the obvious choice is to do everything. To experience everything, because this is the one chance you have to do it. It is better to live and see and do everything so that you might come to better understand nothing, and return to the nothingness from hence you came.

Zero. It is the circular journey. The best journey. The journey where you arrive right back where you started.

Zero. It is the number of the Fool. The wisest of the wise, and the most foolish of the foolish.

Zero. Nothing. Nothing is everything. It is hot and cold together. Nothing. It is fast and slow together. Nothing. It is pleasure and pain together. Nothing. It is wise and foolish. It is creative and dull. It is intelligent and ignorant. It is big and small. It is dangerous and safe. It is fun and boring. It is nothing. So when you come to experience nothing, you experience everything. There is no beginning and there is no end. Zero.

Zero

At least it feels that way.

I've been working since summer started pretty much. Mostly at my dad's office, but I did some handyman work with my dad's friend Tony. I invited Robert along since it was pretty much a three person job. Tony had Robert do most of the heavy lifting because he didn't believe I could handle it. ;_____; JUST BECAUSE I'M SKINNY DOESN'T MEAN I'M WEAK! T____T

Well whatever. I still did my part. I've been TOTALLY hooked on watching Stargate SG-1. I remember when it used to play on TV and I could only catch a few episodes here and there. Watching TV-Shows like that is no fun since there's no continuity, and you don't know what happened before and after, so watching it on the internet one after the other is MUCH better. ;3 But I've been obsessed with it. Haha, when I watched Indiana Jones 4, I almost thought it was just a rip-off of Stargate. Stargate even had an episode about a Crystal Skull! xD It's all about mixing archaeology with space, and world hopping and aliens, just like Indiana Jones 4. xP The IJ4 disappointed me a little bit. I'm not sure why. It was just way different than the other Indy movies. Or maybe I was just expecting too much out of it. Anyway, I've been coming home late so I can only catch a few Stargate episodes in the evening. If I had all day, I'd probably spend the entirety of it on the computer just watching it. xD

I got an A on my Archaeology class, so that's good. But my GPA was kinda weird since I took Archaeology at a different community college so they didn't combine the GPAs. xP I have summer school starting on June 9th.

Crap. Tomorrow I have a piano lesson and my teacher was expecting me to study for this advanced piece that I found. I didn't play the piano at all this week. Dx Been so busy and exhausted with work, and then Stargate sucking me to the computer. >____>; I'm hopeless. xP Mmmmah. Tired. Sleep time.

*dies 3 times*

GAH. FINALS. ARE. OVER.

1 week cram session of DOOM is over. My room is still a disaster area.

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Oh dear. I feel as if I pretty much bombed my practical. How disappointing. Next week is the last week of this semester. I only have to attend on Monday and Tuesday because those are the finals days. For the rest of this week, I have off, but not really because it means it's just finals study time.

But first, I have labs due on Friday, so I should work on those first. I guess I'll plot out a study schedule here.

Wednesday (Today) - Bio Practical (failed) / Free Time!!!! <3
Thursday - Work on remaining Chemistry Labs and finish them up. Study Archaeology. (PAY DAY! >3)
Friday - Study really hard on Biology. Go to Library?
Saturday - Study Chemistry
Sunday - Study Biology some more
Monday - Biology Final (Cumulative: Multiple Choice Only) @ 12:45 PM / Study Chemistry some more
Tuesday - Chemistry Final (Cumulative: M.C. & Short answer) @ 7:30 AM / Study Archaeology / Archaeology Final (non-cumulative/easy) @ 7:00 PM
Wednesday - LIVE HAPPY LIVE FREE!!!! <3
Thursday - INDIANA JONES MOVIE 4!! <333333

Not too distant future (a couple of weeks later) - Summer school. Dx

My exams, in likely order of difficulty

Biology/Chemistry (Both really hard)
Archaeology

My exams in order of importance to overall GPA

Biology (May be possible to attain an A, but unlikely. Still should give it all.)
Chemistry (I'm on the cusp of a B with an 80%. I MUST achieve higher than a B on the Final.
Archaeology (Pretty much guaranteed A.)