Inaccuracy

May 20, 2009 at 1:05 AM
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I guess it wouldn't be inaccurate so say right now, that I'm pretty much fucked.

I've been failing most of my midterms recently. I haven't gone to pretty much any classes in the past two weeks. And I barely study at all anymore. Most of the time I feel like I'm in hellish nasal and ocular agony due to my allergies. And the rest of the time I simply can't resist the urge to collapse on my big soft bed, bury my red watery eyes and snot covered face into my pillow and sleep for most of the day. Just yesterday I bought something my violin teacher recommended. Zyrtec. I don't have much faith in modern allergy medication, but for yesterday and today it's been only so far. Granted, I took it late yesterday, and I didn't really feel any onset of allergy symptoms anyway, so it could be purely coincidental.

Anyway, my grades are gone to shit, and I've pretty much given up on even thinking about what the fuck I'm gonna do after college. For some reason, in my brain I've been thinking this is the last quarter of my last year, and I've got nothing to do from now on. Really though, I didn't realize I have a whole nother year after this. I ain't gettin into Med School, that's for certain.

Ugh. I'm seriously in the mood to just say fuck it all, and give up. I hope I'll feel differently after this batch of hell has gone away.