Okay FUCK.

I'm gonna need to get my fucking ass in gear. If I want my target GPA of at least 3.5 by graduation, I'm going to need to get near 4.0 GPAs every single fucking quarter from now till the end of senior year! Dx I just got my grades and I got a 2.97 GPA for this quarter which was terrible. Cumulatively, I have a 3.12 GPA, which ain't great. I got a C in my Human Biological Variation class, a B+ in Archaeology, (whyyyyy?) and an A- in Biology. >____< If I don't get at least a 3.5, I'll never get into any medical school. xP On top of that, I need to get some intern/volunteer experience in the hospital and prep for the MCAT course, once I get my courses for my pre-med done.

You know, to be brutally honest to myself, I really don't want to be a doctor. But being a doctor is simply the stepping stone for what I want to do, so I have to become a doctor. It's simply the next step in the neverending flight of stairs of my life. But if I stumble on this step, I'll have to start over from the beginning, and I might never get to my goal, which is the end of my staircase which actually has no end. Yeah, I know what I say makes no fucking sense, but it makes sense to me, so I don't give a shit.

It doesn't matter if I need to get a 4.0 from here till the end of my school career, because I'm gonna fucking do it. No matter what it is, I'm gonna get my act together, and pull off 5 fucking 4.0s in a row. That's right. I ain't gonna settle for any A minuses anymore either. Solid As. Every single homework assignment turned in. Every fucking class attended whether I'm sick, hungry, sleepy or not. Every resource off the internet printed and read. Every page in every text book read. Every lecture recorded. Every diagram, and anecdote noted. I have to tell you, I'm fucking intelligent. I'm not just stroking my ego. It's simply a fact, that I'm almost a goddamn fucking genius. I was probably more intelligent than anyone in my entire High School, even if I got worse grades than them. I got out with a 3.2 GPA, but the valedictorians all came to me for homework help. And I got a 3.2 GPA after failing like a full semester's worth of classes, so I don't know how in hell I pulled that off, especially since I have a 3.1 GPA right now even though I've only had like 3 Cs in the two and one-third years I've been in college. Probably because I got more Bs than As in higher credited classes.

Anyway, since I'm so fucking intelligent, the only reason I don't get straight As is simply because I'm a lazy dirty slob. I cut classes to sleep. My room looks like a swamp. I'm late to everything, if I do show up. I just sleep in class all day. When I get home, I play on Gaia Online, and I honestly only study or do assignments like the night before they're due. Though I know that you're not supposed to do that in college, my brain didn't get the memo, and my body keeps doing whatever it pleases.

SO FUCK YOU, ME. I'm gonna grow some fucking balls, and I'm gonna overcome these academia bitches! Like I said, I'm gonna do every thing that makes a good fucking student, and I'm gonna pull off 4.0s for the rest of my time at Davis! D:<